I can't get no satisfaction.

Yesterday is notoriously the most common day for suicide
in the nation.
Congratulations on surviving it.

I've yet again plummetted into a quarter life crisis.
I can tell you right now, this wasn't supposed to be my life. As much as I hate that phrase, it really rings true right now. Had you asked me when I was thirteen where I saw myself at nineteen, it would not have included the words "three jobs" and "parents house" or even "seattle". I let things go too easily, and I don't try to live in the moment. A part of me wants things to be how they were. A part of me just wants emmense change.

I am a list maker, and due to that, I have a bucket list, I have lists of things I generally want to do (fencing, archery, etc.) and I have an extensive list of places I wish to live. Despite all of this, I'm sitting here at my parents' kitchen table debating whether or not I should go to the post office to apply for my passport, soley because I'm not keen on getting my picture taken. I feel pathetic, especially because I can't live in any of the places I want to live without a passport. I want to go back to Vancouver more than anything, too.

I feel I'm not the only one who's dissatisfied with their lives right now...that new show The Buried Life on MTV looks super super cool. I love watching people do the things I'm too lazy and petrified to do myself.

I'm going to the post office.


peaches.

Teen Job Chop.

Every Saturday at work I peruse that week's Sunday Times. Today I stumbled upon the 'Letter's to the Editor' section about their article on the decline of teen jobs, and how it is impacting teenagers. These letters were all from angry stereotypical adults who believe every teenager on God's green earth does nothing - and desires nothing more -but sit infront of their computer on "their websites". They all slam the teenage work ethic and claim we are a useless lot. I have two problems with this.

A. We learned our work ethic from someone, didn't we?
B. I have more jobs - and get praise from said jobs - than most adults I know. Yet, still, I'm the incapable fool? I don't think so.

There was one letter that said "teens bring little or nothing to the table but a misguided sense of entitlement...". I'm sorry, but where does yours come from? If I am equally qualified, it is fair game, my friend. Another letter claimed we, the youth, are more reluctant to work extra hours, even for pay. Why yes, with employers who carry this attitude, I would rather slice my ear off than sit and be treated with little to no respect. (Don't misread this: Respect ought to be earned, but there needs to be opportunity in which to earn it.) Finally, the topic was brought up about teens' ignorance when it comes to grammar and punctuation. I enjoy this, as we are the generation born into computers. I understand the limited vocabulary as a result, but the typos just seem more inappropriate.

So, there is not doubt there are the fools that ought to reserve themselves soley for fast food joints, I do not appreciate the stereotype. I also understand most of this is coming from grumpy adults who probably got their jobs takens away as a result of the poor choices they and their parents made years ago. However, I have the sense of mind to know it does not condone robbing youth of their feelings of self worth. It's not our fault you have too much pride to look for work at McDonalds when you've reached your end.



ps. Yes, I do find the irony in my blogging while at work. Alas, at least I'm not on Facebook like the rest of my coworkers 10 years my senior. =)

So, even though it's been ages since 2009, it's tradition for me to fill out this one survey. Tradition as in: I've been doing it annually since 2004. Here it is:

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
- I bought a gorilla suit, I wore said gorilla suit, I became part of the Secret Tower Club, I graduated high school, I managed three jobs at the same time, and I went on vacation without adults.
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- I don't make resolutions
3. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
- fame. fortune. success, a feeling of self worth. a niche.
4. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- march 9th; when I became legendary. march 24 -31; trip to disneyland with heather.april 8th; the day I drove up to canada to 'see a movie' with ill intentions and learned you can't force fate, and whilst you can prepare for it there's no use trying tyo beat the system.
5. Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder?
- happier
thinner or fatter?
- thinner actually
richer or poorer?
- definitely richer
6. What was your favorite TV program?
- I kind of stopped watching TV for the sake of the show. Either I turn it on and leave the room or I occupy myself with something else. But I did LOVE the Long Way Down documentary.
7. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- this sound ridiculous, but owl city, eddie vedder, and the rediscovery of one republic.
8. What was your favorite film(s) of this year?
- oh what a question to ask! te year I saw over 100 movies in the cinema. but, here goes: sherlock holmes, the imaginarium of dr. parnassus, land of the lost, up in the air, the men who stare at goats, up, transformers II, across the universe (didn't come out this year, but it's the first time i saw it...), inglorious basterds.
9. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
- it went completely downhill in comparison to 2008, but i'm rectifying that.
10. Who was the best new person you befriended?
- i didn't befriend anyone.

FALLING, YES I AM FALLING

When I first moved to my town I positively hated it. I still do, actually. It's small (about 15 miles from Seattle though, so it's not that small...), full of old people, and literally the only thing to do here is leave. Seriously - we've got a major highway, a train, a ferry, a harbor; all we're missing is an airfield, and that's a mere fifteen miles away. Nevertheless, there is one view on one street overlooking the Sound, potentially the ferry, the Olympics, and Kingston. It's gorgeous and there's rarely a tree obstructing the view. For those locals - where 220th meets 9th. I probably wouldn't love the view half as much if I didn't love the Olympic National Forest so much, but everytime I find myself going down that street I actually obey the speeding laws just to stare at it longer =D I'll probably post a picture of it soon, but none that I've found so far do it justice. I'll try though.

ALLISON LUCY

I am officially an aunt. Allison was born Wednesday night at 10:38PM. She's a total doll, and I usually think newborns are alien looking. Sadly I'm quite possessive, and am determined to be her favorite. Her uncles were talking to her about soccer & Star Wars as she was falling asleep, then gave her to me. I told her we should paint her nails, and asked her what she thought about the color pink. Her eyes shot open & she got quite lively. I'm winning already =)

excellent bone structure

I am currently lounging in a gorilla suit body whilst watching Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian with commentary. Why am I wearing the gorilla suit? I shall tell you:


gorilla suits are better than Snuggies.

yes, i said it.


I clearly never jumped on the Snuggie band wagon. Wearing a robe backwards has never quite appealed to me. People that wear robes seem like crazy people as it is; why would wearing one backwards suddenly be cool? I don't know. It saddens me that it has caught so quickly with college / high school students. They would benefit much more from gorilla suits. With the suits, they close in the back, so you don't have to watch your backside for snags or whatnot. Additionally, because they close up, you don't have to wear pants. You could be naked from the waist down (not that I advocate it), and no one would know! It's brilliant! They make awesome people legendary. Think about it: if someone comes to the door, and you're in a Snuggie they think "oh look, another Snuggie fanatic." But if you're in a gorilla suit they're thinking "holy smoke this chick's got a gorilla suit! she must be legendary!" It's science. I don't make these rules.

These are such rambles. I simply am not such a fan of Snuggies, and feel gorilla suits needs their glory. End.

peaches,

d.

know or go

my puppy is ignoring me.


this has been ever the week! heather spent the night on sunday - something we haven't done in a long time. technically I haven't had a sleepover in ages with anyone. we were making facetime videos and thus decided to dye our hair pink. I'm talking bubble gum pink, too. She did her entire head, and I just did a few strands. we didn't quite register the fact that her hair is super dark, so now she just kind of has a purple tinge. My blonde hair, however, got intensely pink. It was awesome on Sunday night; not so awesome at work on Monday afternoon. I only had it in streaks beneath the top layer, and in my bangs so I tried to hide it as best I could, but I got caught =/


I've been thinking and speaking a lot about The Big Move. I've had a few spats with my parents this past week, and what with time generally progressing, my future is hanging gravely in the air. I'm moving to London in May if at least only for a few months. I need a change from the norm here and, while the weather won't be much of a change, just about all else will. To answer the ever present question: "why don't you just go for a visit?"

because.

I've heard from a many notable source that the best way to truely experience a culture and society is to completely drown yourself in it. Go to the grocery store, use the laundrymat, send a letter through the parcel service. That good stuff. As of right now I can afford to chillax for about four months, but I think I want to work at least part time. How weird would it be from going to working three jobs to immediately working zero? Awkward.

ANYhow in the spirit of my near dependence, I decided to go grocery shopping tonight. Mainly, I went because my candy canes were all eaten up already. So in planning for the next several meals, I bought poptarts (brekkie), ritz bits cheese (lunch?) and candy canes (dessert). I'm going to be a remarkable adult. Heather & I were talking about what kind of nerf gun arsenial and will ferell collection our shared apartment would have if we so chose to have one. A mini fridge loaded with lunchables and always at least one fort. Ohh what dreams we have...

I'm sleepy and don't have a day off until...Sunday? Good stuff.

peaches,

d.