I can't get no satisfaction.

Yesterday is notoriously the most common day for suicide
in the nation.
Congratulations on surviving it.

I've yet again plummetted into a quarter life crisis.
I can tell you right now, this wasn't supposed to be my life. As much as I hate that phrase, it really rings true right now. Had you asked me when I was thirteen where I saw myself at nineteen, it would not have included the words "three jobs" and "parents house" or even "seattle". I let things go too easily, and I don't try to live in the moment. A part of me wants things to be how they were. A part of me just wants emmense change.

I am a list maker, and due to that, I have a bucket list, I have lists of things I generally want to do (fencing, archery, etc.) and I have an extensive list of places I wish to live. Despite all of this, I'm sitting here at my parents' kitchen table debating whether or not I should go to the post office to apply for my passport, soley because I'm not keen on getting my picture taken. I feel pathetic, especially because I can't live in any of the places I want to live without a passport. I want to go back to Vancouver more than anything, too.

I feel I'm not the only one who's dissatisfied with their lives right now...that new show The Buried Life on MTV looks super super cool. I love watching people do the things I'm too lazy and petrified to do myself.

I'm going to the post office.


peaches.

Teen Job Chop.

Every Saturday at work I peruse that week's Sunday Times. Today I stumbled upon the 'Letter's to the Editor' section about their article on the decline of teen jobs, and how it is impacting teenagers. These letters were all from angry stereotypical adults who believe every teenager on God's green earth does nothing - and desires nothing more -but sit infront of their computer on "their websites". They all slam the teenage work ethic and claim we are a useless lot. I have two problems with this.

A. We learned our work ethic from someone, didn't we?
B. I have more jobs - and get praise from said jobs - than most adults I know. Yet, still, I'm the incapable fool? I don't think so.

There was one letter that said "teens bring little or nothing to the table but a misguided sense of entitlement...". I'm sorry, but where does yours come from? If I am equally qualified, it is fair game, my friend. Another letter claimed we, the youth, are more reluctant to work extra hours, even for pay. Why yes, with employers who carry this attitude, I would rather slice my ear off than sit and be treated with little to no respect. (Don't misread this: Respect ought to be earned, but there needs to be opportunity in which to earn it.) Finally, the topic was brought up about teens' ignorance when it comes to grammar and punctuation. I enjoy this, as we are the generation born into computers. I understand the limited vocabulary as a result, but the typos just seem more inappropriate.

So, there is not doubt there are the fools that ought to reserve themselves soley for fast food joints, I do not appreciate the stereotype. I also understand most of this is coming from grumpy adults who probably got their jobs takens away as a result of the poor choices they and their parents made years ago. However, I have the sense of mind to know it does not condone robbing youth of their feelings of self worth. It's not our fault you have too much pride to look for work at McDonalds when you've reached your end.



ps. Yes, I do find the irony in my blogging while at work. Alas, at least I'm not on Facebook like the rest of my coworkers 10 years my senior. =)

So, even though it's been ages since 2009, it's tradition for me to fill out this one survey. Tradition as in: I've been doing it annually since 2004. Here it is:

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
- I bought a gorilla suit, I wore said gorilla suit, I became part of the Secret Tower Club, I graduated high school, I managed three jobs at the same time, and I went on vacation without adults.
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- I don't make resolutions
3. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
- fame. fortune. success, a feeling of self worth. a niche.
4. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- march 9th; when I became legendary. march 24 -31; trip to disneyland with heather.april 8th; the day I drove up to canada to 'see a movie' with ill intentions and learned you can't force fate, and whilst you can prepare for it there's no use trying tyo beat the system.
5. Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder?
- happier
thinner or fatter?
- thinner actually
richer or poorer?
- definitely richer
6. What was your favorite TV program?
- I kind of stopped watching TV for the sake of the show. Either I turn it on and leave the room or I occupy myself with something else. But I did LOVE the Long Way Down documentary.
7. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- this sound ridiculous, but owl city, eddie vedder, and the rediscovery of one republic.
8. What was your favorite film(s) of this year?
- oh what a question to ask! te year I saw over 100 movies in the cinema. but, here goes: sherlock holmes, the imaginarium of dr. parnassus, land of the lost, up in the air, the men who stare at goats, up, transformers II, across the universe (didn't come out this year, but it's the first time i saw it...), inglorious basterds.
9. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
- it went completely downhill in comparison to 2008, but i'm rectifying that.
10. Who was the best new person you befriended?
- i didn't befriend anyone.